Finally a moment to blog. I shouldn't feel obligated, this blog is really for me more than anything else, but I do feel a bit lax if I skive off for a bit and I do miss being around here. When I write, I feel like we're having a chat, a catch-up. That would sound bonkers to normal people but we're bloggers aren't we, so you know what I mean.
I get a bit bored of people going on about how busy they are but I've fallen into 'the Busy trap' (great article). As soon as Renegade finished, something else big popped up, so the time I thought I'd have when Gus went to school hasn't really happened yet. And yet, even when I'm not so busy, I make myself busy, out of some misguided notion that if I'm not busy, I'm being lazy and I start to feel redundant.
I think probably a lot of freelancers feel that way. Always this underlying guilt about being the one at home, and though I am working, I'm sure a lot of people think it's an easy life. That I am probably sitting around eating biscuits watching This Morning. And because Ben goes out and makes the money we live on, I constantly pressure myself to contribute more. When you run your own business, you just don't switch off, ever. That's why I'm designing Christmas cards in my sleep! I find it really, really hard to relax.
So the other day, prompted by Gus keeping me up all night with a hacking cough and ear infection I literally stayed in bed all morning and watched Columbo. And it was bloody marvellous! I wouldn't have got up at all if I hadn't had to go and watch the school play! I think I have to try to do that more often.
We had a lovely weekend too, the best in a while. Recently I've found weekends difficult, there's been pretty bad sibling rivalry and constant fighting which has been exhausting and we've all been walking on eggshells to prevent meltdowns. But we've really worked on things, family meetings, the lot. And things have improved immeasurably :-)
Saturday morning we made these. (Making up for not making an amazing handmade advent calendar ;-)
I made some trees about 10 years ago, which have become part of our family Christmas and I've always wanted to make more with the kids. So I ordered a reindeer cutter and plenty of Das and we made loads of these decos. So easy and so much fun. I'm going to string them up over the fireplace.
Then on Saturday afternoon I took the big one to see Emil and the Detectives at the National Theatre and it was absolutely brilliant! It was extra special because I read the book to him last year and he loved it. A book which I read myself when I was about his age and never forgot. And as we entered the theatre I realised that I was also 8 when I first went to the National Theatre (to see Guys and Dolls). I highly recommend the book for kids, it's such an adventure. And if there are any tickets left, the play is just fantastic. The staging and production design is absolutely beautiful.
Then on Sunday I took the little one to The Tiger Who Came to Tea. My 3rd visit! I think I'm done now because the songs are driving me nuts ;-) But it is also a really lovely production. Gus's face when the tiger came in was a picture!
Then we got our tree and decorated it to A Very She & Him Christmas. And all was right with the world :-)
So that's my catch up. I'll fill you in on new things I'm working on next time. Hope you are all well. x
p.s God this post is middle class. Crafting, family meetings and the National Theatre. Sheesh. But I refuse to feel guilty about my middle class guilt!